HolyMelody wrote:Thanks everyone for your concerns. It makes me feel a lot better to read all the support everyone is giving. I started to realize that I keep giving him "second" chances and he always pulls the same crap. I also realized that I'm not his top priority and he cares more about handing out with his friends than he does me. We of course fought this weekend and I'm just tired of his controlling behavoir. I talked to my mother and she is more than happy to have me back home. Part of me wants to stay, but it's more out of pity than love. I don't feel anything towards him. When he touches or kisses me I feel nothing toward him but irritation. Which should be a sign in itself that my heart is ready to leave. I plan on leaving Monday when my mother is off so she can help me move and be there when I tell him I'm leaving. I hate to leave but he really has left me no choice. I feel smothered and unappreciated. I just have to convince myself that he will be okay when I'm gone, and that I will find someone better in my life. It's just hard because after you've become comfortable around someone it's hard to change, and part of me fears he's the best I'll ever do.
He's the worst you'll ever do, definitely not the best. Your strength will see you through. Go for it! You've made your decision and remember - don't look back x